Foo Meow

Meowlers says:
Meow
- Spleak - holiday adventure contest win a Zune type "xmas adventure" says:
Meow! *smikey*
Meowlers says:
*kitty emoption*
- Spleak - holiday adventure contest win a Zune type "xmas adventure" says:
Cats are cool but kittens are the cutest.


Agreed.

It is snowing outside.

I am down with it snowing outside. It is cool looking from inside, and a nice change-up from the crappy weather.

I am somewhat bored.

Going to re-format my computer soon, but I am fuxing lazy.

Still snowing. The snow is slower, but thicker. I like it this way.

meow
I just woke up from a nap.
ZzzzZZzz'

What a useless post

Foo out

Doodelle.

Meow. Hmm, what to write about...
I think I am going to play with the internet and doodle, as well as playing some HL with cam, dave and others.

I am thinking about buying a sifter-box. A co-worker has one and I think it would be a nice addition to my inventory. I guess I will be going on an expedition to The Smoke Zone for one.
I <3 questing.


Sigh, I bought Halflife on steam and it wont function properly :( I need to re-format my computer.
Just finished a nice cup of mint tea. It is getting to be bed times for collins. Mayhap some hoots before sleepses, but maybe not. Perhaps some reading of my book, 'Magician's Gambit' by David Eddings.

Anyways, it is Colin-no-longer-blogging time, so I bid thee adieu.

Im going to listen to music.=

Maybe write.
Maybe blog.
Maybe quote lyrics.
May be emo?
Maybe sit and play guitar.
or maybe just sit back and enjoy the music.
I might talk to people on msn, but I am tired, and the music is powerful.

Currently listening to: The Hush Sound.

Caitlynspence. where did you go. More like where did I? I was here, there and everywhere.
But you have moved, that small amount. (At least I think)

Had a thought; lost it. But then I found it again; I can't remember what we did in religions today. I mean, I remember now, but there was a good minute of not having any idea.

CUTTTTTT. It is now tomorrow day.

Currently listening to: TFK. (art of breaking)

Why is saying 'I promise' any more valid than just saying something?
I've started lying again. I don't like it, but it's easy, convenient, and quick in a scrape. It comes unbidden. (or maybe it IS bidden)
Is it possible to actually have a full insight into someone elses situations?
it might be, but then again, maybe not.

brb bong hoots.
backses.

Anyways, I bought new headphones last night.
I enjoy being able to listen to music whenever I want.
Unfortunately I cannot hold my entire library on my ipod nano's puny two gigs.
Do no get me wrong; I really enjoy my nano.
Its mobility is handy and luxurious in daily use.

Currently listening to: POD. (alive)

Ahhhhhh. Marijuana, relief of withdrawal.
Withdrawal you say?
Who cares, says I.
I feel good right now.
Yesterday I had some good bud and it was very pleasant.
Tolerance Shmolerance.
I just need a higher quality.

Currently listening to: Kutless. (all alone)

Salvia.
Quite enjoyable in moderate doses.
If taken rashly, it can produce unpleasant results.
For some reason, after my more intensive salvia trip -20x Standardized Extract, and enough for 5 minutes and almost complete amnesia- I realized how uncomfortable I was, scared even, of a lot of things. I was weak, a nervous wreck. I realized that there are things stronger than me. That can overpower me. I did not like that.

When 'burning out' or on the afterbuzz of a larger dose of salvia, coherent thought and speech are impaired greatly. You are partially conscious of this, but the only words you can think of to express it are, "I'm dumb!" or, on a less intense dose, "with salvia, my intelligence goes *imitation of plane crashing and burning*". After expressing a coherent thought, one is quite proud, and considers that a small victory over that power one just experienced.

Anywho, I am going to step away from the computer, eventually return to school, and go to work.

I lose,
Peace.

I <3 Vancouver Island

If that were actually true, I'd tot lol.
(I mean that "news article"; I do <3 Vancouver Island)
(Also, I occasionally tot lol as well)

I am at school, it's lunch break.
I dont know what I am going to do for the next hour'n'a'half, as I have a spare in D block. Smoked a joint at lunch but I'm not really bakked-yes, I meant to spell it like that-. Me and a bud are sitting here in the library killing time on the computers.
It is one minute to the bell. I had thought first that it was late in the break, but then re-thought and, again,thought that it was still quite early in that we had run where we were going, did our deed and ran back.
Sometimes I think the lunch periods are too short; then again, I dont much care for more than about an hour or so of class a day.
I am tot blogging. Lool.
More joints be needed. unfortunately at home. Mayhap I will go home and take some bong-hoots before comp-rel.
But I think not. I have skipped out the last three classes in CR and I should really go.
It is a good class. Lots of discussion, but mostly just listening to 'the Popster'. Interesting stuff, but if you aren't paying attention, it puts you right to sleep.
Good class for weed smoking, fascinating topics, and you actually learn, because Pops repeats stuff a lot.
Same with english, I tend to get good marks in both classes, and really, all I have to to is pay attention. Not hard with the correct dosage of a little ol' MJ.
Working 5-11 tonight. Yumm. I like food.
I dont really have a chance to go home before I go to work, which means Colin has no blazeables :(
Oh wells.

I am reading through my David Eddings books again. I really, really enjoy them, let alone if I enhance the situation of my imagination and concentration.
Again, the correct dosage of Marijuana is very enjoyable.

My 'correct doses' are going up though, because I have been driving my tolerance up.
Soon enough I will have to take a few side-quests in my journey to Pallmallmol.
I am Foo.
(goodbye)

Pallmallmol Lol 1//.

OUtside smoking up says:
heyyy
OUtside smoking up says:
IM tot lolgoonered
OUtside smoking up says:
ohnoez

This is me: Right now. Im here. I worked 13 hours today.
Oh, three "a's" in the skyy. I'm so tired now; I've been questing for who knows, two weeks now, and gathering equipment. I have reached a fair little area. A plaque on the grass in the centre of a ring of trees reads
" zogandied."
....

"C says:
Im zogandied."


...
Questing for Pallmallmol.
Foo-lol-ing.

Unadorned - lux, overadorned, msname=unadorned (sign) says: I lose, (link to false, imply, realit)
lol, does that make sense to you? It does to me. THIS ^ is how I can remember concepts from times when I dont have the cognitive skill to hold them down. I write a sign, a phrase, or a word on my hand and come back to it later. It usually works. This one came from a symbol (a kind of fancy U) followed by 'says: I lose'. It works. It is a concept, I havent fully worked it out, I am being pretty lazy about it. Lol.

Anyways, theres a few of those.

I am me. I think im still in love with kate.... Does this explain why i hate her?

EDIT:  replace hate with resent, maybe?

Meowkitty lolling

lolololol? I was definitely Lolling

losethegame.com theres a family tree. I was too lazy to figure it out, but add me as a parent if applicaple.


meow. Class over. Class time, lool.

Mow, Curd, A, Feed, Ill.

Coinschwammering Balfoozlery? Melornaconfoozmic Peridongoonality. Erentianistically Quelignandescent! Moogle Wah. Fa Shwee Shwee. Noodagget. Dingle.

.. . . . .Kat~ cell 618 3020 says:
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.. ' '' ' £00£z says:
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Lololololoololllololooooolers.
I am not doing my not schoolwork.
Fashweezle.


Bagoinskweedinglool.

I lose.

This is own-lee mine-ore looling. Lololol Iloselololol

SIllies.

ICecream and more attempted homework.

Maybe a wagon of bacon.(tomorrow, lest i sleepi-wake a'fore the middest of the night)

LOl. More seooonsldmd lol Soon.

IIIIIAAAAANNNNNN!!!!


Chocolate *very, very slight pause* Waffles.

Whats with this?! JFLMD.
i dont even know what i'd do. turn around and be cured? no. i'd just die.
i thought my heart would stop. then it kept beating. why did you kiss me?
from insanity to you.
Much Love.



Foo out. Lolololool

Soarin'

Im soarin! I wanna see if I can go higher. I just feel so GREAT!
\\\Bam! Mark is gonna come chill, will write more later.

Hey Skwarczynskys

Hows it going guys, Im pretty sure you're the only ones reading.

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I could write so much more, but it'd take forever, and I could write pages on one quarter... fifth... quarter.

Haha understand that.

sigh

-=CENSORED=-

Bam! Censored. Information is now being withheld. For the judgement shall be passed. Thy offspring and mine own self doth lend ourselves to the same social groups and passtimes. Oftentimes a passtime group has been formed, and under it all, I lay buried.
Though I once thought of thee wise council in common times. Ofttimes now I think only in doubt and --- cut. I done.

lazy

I am lazyyyy.
School turfed my physics class, so I have a spare now :D
I only get English and rarely Comp Rel homework, and I'm so lazy and unmotivated that I still am not doing my homework. Agh! Must do workk.

Anyways, payday tomorrow, and its going to be small ;( I need moneyssss.
I want to chip in for Allyn's repairs and get that behind me, and I need to buy Gas, and other 100 ish dollar purchases. I also want to buy food, and assorted toys.

I think I will be doing some clothes buying, hopefully Kate will be my advisor.
I think Bran is taking a stand, or at least a lean towards good. Lol, I'm a tool.

If I find some pot to smoke tomorrow, I will have my new record of 2 weeks straight, lol.
If anything malign, it makes you fucking lazy.

Anyways. Meow

School's Back

My last days of Summer were pretty good. I had a week at qwanoes, Then spent the last days of freedom hanging out like a madman. Bought a new bong, Named Bob-Terry.

My first day of school was fairly good, I only had to be there for a half-hour today so I slept in, had breakfast with kate, went, blazed right after, drove down to long lake, blazed again, went to mcdonalds with katelynne, chilled with her, dropped her off for work, went to cams, blazed again, blazed again, drove around, blazed again, drove to mcdonalds then went to his house and smoked some hookah.

Lol, schooooooool is back. I havent been assigned a locker yet, and thats fine, because I have nothing to fill it with. I have no set up my binder and paper and whatnot. My classes this year are Jazz, Comparative Religions, English 12 and Physics 12 I think. (I think)
Anyways, Me and Arielle broke up. Dont even know why I dated her.

Sleepies and Burntness. Im done blogging for tonight.

Graaaaa 0wn3dd//.

So yeah, I got 0wn3d today. I got a $368 ticket :( for 'drive without due care & attention' as in, spinning my tires a little bit on some gravel. Noooo Goooood.


so I got nailed with 144 (1) (a)...

Careless driving prohibited
144 (1) A person must not drive a motor vehicle on a highway

(a) without due care and attention,

(b) without reasonable consideration for other persons using the highway, or

(c) at a speed that is excessive relative to the road, traffic, visibility or weather conditions.

(2) A person who contravenes subsection (1) (a) or (b) is liable on conviction to a fine of not less than $100 and, subject to this minimum fine, section 4 of the Offence Act applies.


... but I was in a parking lot, pulling out of my space. (with a little too much gas)


anyways, thats like half my paycheque gone. Maybe I wont be out of debt on thursday... oh well I'm working a 13 day stretch, and if I pick up a shift on sunday evening, I might be able to go for more. Soon enough I'll be good.


Looking at cars, found a 1987 Toyota Supra for sale for 2000 in the Parksville/Qualicum area. Couple of needed repairs but looks yummy.

I want more money.


foo out.

So

I guess I am over Kate now?
I ... Guess?
I guess im moving on now.
I hadn't kissed a girl other for so long.
Well. I'll be able to look back and understand one day.




EDIT:     HUUUUUUUUUUURGGGGGHHHHHHH EWWWWW

Mr. Popular

Hey every(one) how are we today? I believe that I am well rested. I have been out looling pretty much many nights in a row, and have been crashing around 3 every morning. I bunked down around 3:45 this morning, so I decided to sleep in. It is now 1:45, and I just got up, after some well needed and oftentimes disturbed sleep. I must have recieved like 6 phone calls this morning.
Went to some girls birthday party last night, but we were late. It took like 40 minutes to exctract Dave from his house. Party was pretty lolling, and I got some cake. Fairly sweet sheesha-ing, many new smokers. Had a mint bowl, then a double apple bowl. I blew some sweet smoke rings. Adam accidently knocked the bowl off the top of the sheesha pipe, leaving a nice little square charcoal burn on the carpet, effectively ending the sheesha session. After that people bunked down, and me nd Kevin were left to wait for Dave to finish up with Diana or whatever her name was. Bro's BEFORE Ho's. Naughty Dave. haha, all in all, a very looling party. The birthday girl ended up vomiting repeatedly and going to bed, however.
Rosie(rosy) is looking very nice however. Dave is painting her a pinkish tone. Im doubting she'll be ready for jamming on monday, but I am quite psyched for it. Me and David had a sweet jam the other day, and if he wants to two-beer it, it might be very sweet. Sheesha would also be very nice addition to the jam. I am guessing I'll be using his drummers kit, which is at his house, because that is looking like the Jam location for monday.
I am kind of hungry, but I dont know what to eat. I'm diggin some McD food, but that is far away. (:( ) hmm... maybe some perogies. well, we'll see. Anyways...

EOP

- Foo Dobbins.

PS: it's happenning again///>/>?>/>>.?>/._--_/././/??>./..>

asshole

... me?
im just like everyone I judge.

Youth All-Nighter

Wheeeeeee! lots of fun!
Had some sweet waterfighting. Watched some sweet Braveheart. Played some sweet 'German Spotlight' involving much shirtless running around, a little bit of yard-hopping, and much stealth/avoidance tactics. Left me kinda sore, and cut/scratched/blistered a little bit. Went to some sweet beach-age and chilled around Jon's car listening to Gogol Bordello, went back to the church and everyone kinda just chilled out, minus Chris Thate and I. We played with the mats for an hour or two, jumping, rolling flipping, tackling, body-checking etc.
That etc involves me trying to to a brackflip off the wall.... Trying being key.
I landed on my head. Hard to get the confidence to try it.

After mats n' whatnot, Jon and I went for a cruise out to the gas station and I picked up a couple of 'Arush'es then we cruised around listening to Dreamtheatre.
came back around 5:30, started waking people up for breakfast.
I vaccuumed while heather made Panny-Cakes, because I am absolutely useless in a kitchen. Yummy breakfast, more clean-up, then Roberto-the-large gave me a ride home.
I slipped in and out of consciousness whenever we hit a red light. Became quite bonk.
Went to work, un-fun. Didnt get my break until the last half-hour of my shift, and the day was quite busy. Went to CaitlynSpence's birthday party, and ended up sleeping on her couch for 2 hours.
lololololol I lose, happy birthday CaitlynSpence.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY R+H (best youth pastors ever)
Also, thank you guys so much for all you've done for the youthgroup, especially financially and transport-wise.

Going to Sally-Anne tomorrow, as R+H are out camping, and and the SA is having a paintball game, funlols? yes? ok.

Alrighty then.
Whoever reads this, go you.
- FooMeow

0X00X0XX <-- Paradiddle.

Boomdaboomdoom BadumBada ... Paradiddle... I dont know whyyy.
Yeah, Went to a partay at Daves the other night after work. Kevin was silly-drunk, like 2.5+ litres of beer, and Dave's new sheesha pipe is pretty sweet, also very pretty. Named King Hookah. Had some tasty smooth niceness courtesy of peach tobacco/molasses, but later on the packed a bowl with weed and Double Apple, so I stopped smoking.

Went and helped Kate out at McD's for a bit, but left around 5:00 AM because Carrie was going to show up. Drove Chris (sp?) Kaiser home and then had my McGriddle (Bacon and Egg, very tasty) before crashing around 5:30 am. Slept until two, went to work at four and came back home around 11:30 after driving Laura home. Woke up 45 minutes late for work, and was on the floor working around 12 minutes after waking up. Worked all day and am now writing this, going to pick Kevin up around 5:30 from Sears, where I am considering applying.

Albert is coming over for dinner tonight and we might be talking some buisiness :D. Coolness. Im on skype, colin.dobson, if ya ever wanna skype me.

E O P

- Meowkitty lolling.
I lose, Colin.

the kingdome SHALL come.

Your Kingdom Come Conference is on at CFC this week, since friday until tuesday.
I got to listen to Graham Powell on friday night, but I ended up skipping out on saturday night. I should have gone. I dont like alcohol. I dont like Demonic stuff. I had some sort of demonic thing going on saturday evening. I had 'noticed' it before, just the semi-demonic influences and temptaions on my decisions. Also I found immense amounts of anger inside of me, and I could just slip into volatile moods without reason, and sometimes with. On saturday night, I was so angry I was seriously considering driving over to someones house and taking a tire iron to them.
I was shaking violently, I was freaked out. I called up my youth pastor (Big Rob!) to pray and we talked a bit. After that though, I ended up talking to the cause of my anger and it got really bad. I was shaking like crazy and so desperate for God to help me! I did not want -- well did want-- to go and do something stupid. But I awas/am still trying to 'get back' with God. ( I dont even know what I mean ).
I ended up having a pray/run around the block and crashing. Dreamed about marijuana plants that grew really tall. ( I cant help what I dream about )

Anyways, Graham Powell spoke at church this morning, but I was busy helping with the Youth Fundraiser. Got home and slept all day until Mike came and picked me up for some more Conference-age. Natasja (sp?) Vermak (sp?) is now speaking and she was pretty cool. She prayed for people tonight and slayed them left right and centre. Hardcore.

I am hopefully going up again tomorrow morning, and returning in time for work (5-12)
I am not necessarily longing to be at the conference, just for breakthrough. Hopefully the conference will remind me of some stuff.

Really, thats all they can do. A conference cant really bring anything new, because all we need is provided by God. But they sure can remind us, and give us techniques and new viewpoints. I was listening to a Rob Bell sermon tonight, and I really liked it. I kind of felt.... Optimistic. The Kingdom SHALL come.

Hmmm.

hmmm...
So many things to post about, but no idea of how to put them here; or make them sound postworthy.

I dont like my job. I love the people I work with. I love McD food. I love half-price/free McD food.

I hate alcohol... More and more. And more.

Anger is the easy way out.



GOD help me. PLEASE OH LORD HELP ME.

"I still need a ride! --- I broke the bike!"

Oh McD's, you give so many memories. Worked a closing shift tonight and had some mad sanitizer wars with Mandi. Drove James V. & Mandi home -- in two trips, of course -- and drove on home myself. Am now sitting here typing this.. uhh... yeah

night...?





_ Foo-spot

So.... people heart me?

... Mike, Caitlyn, R+H, .... <3 ?

Yeah, I quit smoking pot.... again.... again... today. This time I shook hands on it, so I should be good; at least, more destroyed if I fail.

I prayed to God for the first time in a long time tonight. I need him. and I KNOW that i will only remain dissatisfied without him. I had everything I used to want... (minus girl) and I KNEW that God was still better and the only thing worth while.

Anyways. I am going to have a hell of a time fighting off discouragement. I think I'm gonna call up Michael or Caitlynspence, or both tomorrow.... Hooray for good friends.

Also, I want to apologize to R+H for being a bad influence on your kid, and directly to you, Bran, if you ever read this, Im sorry, man. I was being a dink and trying to hide from life in itself. Dont get discouraged.

lets see how this week goes?


-Colin



Funniest image i've seen in a while. I bet Cspence would love it. :D

Well, I just sent Rhian to bed, so I guess I better follow suit.

Night readers

Puppies and Jelly-Beans

Well, interesting day today. All in all none to shabby; work went by fairly easy, working hard of course, and then drove down to the port theatre. The jazzy thing there didnt turn out so hot, and on the way back Kate and I found her banner. After that, I went to youth and it turned out really great. I ended up Kayaking, Canoeing, and Log Running (in a sense). I was out kayaking and canoeing and whatnot for at least an hour and a half or more, and I didnt really freak out. Damn deep water. haha, really sweet trippy time on the water, and I wasnt even high!

Anyways, came home around 11:30 and I am currently chilling on my computer for a while before I shower. Might have a snack first. Kinda van zinderenbakkered.

Wheeee.... anyways, gonna help Cspence move into her new house, which is right down the street and down a path from mine. w0000. I work 2-8 tomorrow :D

Anyways... For some reason I am now ending this blog.


-
(baked.)

bagoon./>//:''''``~~;'/.

Hey hey
Such a sweet day today. Cruising around alll llllll lllllll day. Put like - I lose - 150-180 clicks on the van. Crazy just drove around alllll day. sweet stuff. Hung out with brandan from like 11am till 9:25pm and saw Jayde at woodgrove, then went to the lake, and looked around till we found rhian's house. Picked Rhian up and cruised on downtown. Hung out at Dezi's house and we all went to rhians then the lake. from the lake we cruised to woodgrove and saw Klair and Joe! Then dropped rhian off at work and drove dezi home. Fun times driving (because most of the day was spent driving, all the cool stuff happened then). Me and Bran went to my place for steak dinner, watched UFC (Ultimate fighting Championship) saw some good fights then went and cruised around and picked up nick and matt. Went to the far side of the lake and then cruised above hammond bay road. went and saw landon at macs, then ended up dropping off bran at home, hitting up harbour park mall, and coming back up, saw a couple cops on the way and was kinda sketched out. Chilled with matt and nick up by uplands school then they went to brans and i drove home.

Currently listening to dispatch and failing to sleep. I really need to but i just cant fall asleep; so im posting this w00000
I have to work at 6 am tomorrow and I am gonna have an omelette for breakfast. Im trying the ziploc method.

anyways. Might put some video/pics up on another post later on. for now, good night!

I love you guys R+H we need to 'hang out' sometime.

- C.J.D>Foo.... :D

The english language is very versatile, but there are still places it cant go.

Like The Hush Sound. I heart them?
I am not claiming to be a 'fan' and I dont know much of anything about them, or their music. I dont even know most of the lyrics, but Dayammmmn they sound good.

Or emotion. Some poetry is close, and some actually captures it. But to truly express the mix, anger, love, sorrow and grief, happiness and God-high is impossible.
At least not satisfactoraly (sp?)(word!?) displayed for me.

I dont think I am over Katelynne.
Her name even looks special in text.
I think it has a place in my heart.

One of my friends got beaten up a bit and bottled today. Assumedly drunk guys.
I dont like alcohol.
It causes so much more pain and rot and evil than it ever has good; by a hundred times and more.

To know a tear was shed for you,
A prayer prayed in the night.
To know that you ARE truly loved,
yet still not realize the TRUE love,
It seems ridiculous.
I should probably get out of this stinking hole.
But it is such a sweet stink.
sigh...?

I dont fit in...

In the YWCA.
In a big city.
In a crowd of screaming teenage girls.

But thats ok. I went and saw Teddy Geiger.
I brought back no 'merch' but thats ok.
I have no money left after anyways :D

Meowkitties?
I lose.

*GASP*

Mike Robertson talked to me on msn this morning!! GASPS! am I famous yet? oh wait. He's a scumbag piece of shit, I forgot. nevermind...

Dissatisfied.

Ahh! Its finally summer. Such an amazing sensation. Its starting to heat up outside, and the sun has been out every day. Very enjoyable. Been having some pretty chill days and hung out with Brandan a couple times. Im going to see Teddy Geiger tonight with Caitlynspence and ... Lainey?
Anyways, pretty sweet. We are splitting the accomodation bill 3 ways, and spending the night over in van.
Anyways, I miss being with Katelynne.... especially because its summer. Last summer was the best year(summer) of my life, so far.
Wow... do I ever dislike Mikey Robertson.

Hookah!

I ... was and am goonered. I discovered the amazing smoothness of cams Hookah, (that sounds dirty, but i mean the smoke) And I took at least 150-250 full lung tokes off of that. It was a mix of watermelon tobacco and bud, and It was sooooo tasty and smooth that I took 140+ full lung tokes and only coughed once. some of them were even mustard tokes. Amazing
reached above and beyond! Wooooo....

Im gonna crash now. .... I bet you're proud of me.

Hawps!

Lols. Good -- I lose -- hop tonight. Colin, Jordan, Allyn. All toughies. Many Loudness, longtime wait-yards. Brokefence, book it, watch the light! Lols. ( I lose again) Put the jar down allyn.
Anyways. Good hop ( i lose) Cam couldnt make it on account of an exam in 5 hours. Apparently I am 'busted' for smoking pot, by my youth pastor. I wonder where she found out ? (maybe the post below this one) Well if you still check up on me, I love you guys, R+H.

Anyways,..... Sleep time?

Can't think of a post name.>.!!!.!>!/.!?././../.>/>/>

Well. Today was fun. Everyone at church was hardcore, and Leah was being hardcore in an abbrasive way. Took Grant out for coffee. Berwick, then went to 'the omen' with Alexis. I havent hung out with her in sooo long. we had a sweet time. Attempted tray drifting ... in a RWD van...... needless to say it didnt work... so we caused a ruckus in a housing district then drove around some more.
It took me an hour and twenty to get home from woodgrove :D lool i lose.

Its funny how it happens...

It's funny how the 'Sadie Hawkins Dance' concept could originate from a comic strip.
It's funny how a prominent cult could spring from science fiction books based on a movie never filmed. (silly L. Ron Hubbard)


Funny how it happens. How you can do something to break up a friendship, and know you're doing it. Fuck.

Anyways (any waaaaaahhhh s) I got my 'N' yesterday, then I went to a retirement dinner/celebration for le mummy. I had to work a 10-6 Latenight and I ended smoking and smoking pot anyways, even though I didn't bring it. RJ, I .... cant even apologize because it was intentional. Anyways it was a sweet night and I took my first 'N' drive home at 7 AM this morning, then drove around a bit with Caitlynspence. We originally intended to go out for coffee with michael, but ended up in harewood and all over the place :D

anywho... church tomorrow.

First Degree Fuck-up.

I am messed up.












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Also; I wish I could say I was trustworthy, but I think i've proven myself wrong (how many times?)

....

The music is so good but unfitting.

- Colin

No forseeable end.

Is there a solution? I don't even know the problem. There are so many possibilities and contradictions. I could go at it like one would barehand an onion, but I am pathetic and weak.
So i'll just sit here and let it get worse.

Ever notice?

Ever notice that people type sentences or lack thereof in the same style and wording as they speak.... it doesnt sound that cool, but think about it. I think its neat.

Ever notice how you WANT to screw up?
... its the devil.
(but i dont care?)


- Colin.

Fishy?

One of the symbols used by early Christians (prior to Constantine) to identify themselves to each other, when to be identified as a Christian could result in death. The symbol of a fish (ΙΧΘΥΣ in Greek) was used, because in Greek the letters of the word are also the first letters of a key Christian concept. I = Ιησυς (Jesus), X = Χριστος (Christ, Messiah, or Anointed one), Θ (the Greek letter theta) = Θεος (God), Υ = Υιος (Son), Σ = Σοτηρ (Savior).
... I stole that from Wiki. I just thought it could be on my blog :D Caitlynspence has a blog now! she is going to (she better) post a bunch of her sermons on there, and I'll get to read them. :D
click the title for her page, one day I'll put it in my bloggatives... when she reminds me :P

anywho, im still messed up, but I'm not being emo right now, so I'm wrapping this up before I start.

Noighters!
- foo

>/>/...?

Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
Draw. Draw.
DrawDraw.
DraDraw.
Draw.
Close.

Why dont I?
...iunno

Any temptation, and I want to throw my (promises?) out the window.
I hear good news, and feel worse.
I want you, but I only (strive?) for you idly.
If I were my own doctor, I'd tell myself that something was wrong, and that we can almost put our finger on it; but we cannot discern a cure.
What, am I moping? Wallowing?
Do I think I can exist?
I.... am..... lame?
In the spiritualiteral fashion, of course.




... sigh

Michael might even have been right

What is wrong with me!? (oh noes angsty emo-ness on a blog)




I lose.

Where is my summer !?

I cannot wait to get out of school... I am sick and tired of learning and working and whatnot. I want to sleep in, chill out, hang out ( on my roof ) and just generally enjoy the summer. Hopefully I will have my 'N' by that time... Unfortunately no car. Probably my last year at Qwanoes this year, unless I go CIT which I was going to do this summer, but that never worked out... oh well.
Spent sunday morning hanging out with Jayde and John (in qualicum), then Me & Jayde went to FC (in nanaimo) resulting in Jayde getting into some poop. (two weeks of it)
Anywho, verse of the moment Philippian 4:13. You can do it Jaydey!

~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~
Unfortunately I dont really have much to
post about... Mayhap I should do some
more english work. I've a somewhat
large project due in around a week
and I am not to good at working
(at home)... anywho, I'm done
I am so done that I am not
even going to finish this
shape thing that I always get stuck in..... see!?
I finally broke free! ahahahahaaaaa


- Colin

stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever

the way she looked at me and said 'mine'
stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever
the story she wrote in which she killed herself because i died
stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever
the way she told me she would and kissed me
stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever
spending every waking minute together after work
stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever
planning where we would live and what kind of house and family
stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever
late night phone conversations even though they wasted cellphone minutes
stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever
when she wrote forever yours in a heart on the wall knowing i would see it whenever i lay in bed
stuff like that that would make me think she would love me forever

too bad she does not

damn she is beautiful

Faithlight

Like a ten watt bulb my faith is shining; at least I can stumble my way throught the half dark.
I just posted UPDOWNROUNDROUND now, it was living as a draft with bits and pieces added on here and there... I've been struggling for a while.

anywho,m my B'day on the 30'th... haha try and find me on that day, Unless you;re part of the Esperanza crew, you wont be finding me :P

Good night Im tired, yo.

Up and Down, Round and Round

Up and Down, Round and Round
Am I lost? Am I found?

I dont know where I've been. I dont know what I've found.
I cannot realize; His glory crown.

Up and Down, Round and Round
Was I lost? Am I now found?

I dont know where I am. Have I hit bottom?
On this roller-coaster called my faith?

Up and Down, Round and Round
God won't you help me to get off the ground?

I have my faith, I have me doubt
I want to follow -- you. I want to shout.

Down and Down, and Down I go.
I cannot do this on my own.
One day I'll realize; fool that I've been.
But for right now, I'll shout and howl
Inside. I know I'm messed up.
Is this a test? Because if it is then I am failing.

Failing and faling; stumbling in the DARK

...Lights out. Wheres your faith?.
If it shone like a light you would be striding forwards.
This ain't condemnation. It's a flippin conviction.
A call back to duty. The life that you found.
Not a life that's perfect. Not by any means. No.
A life that was happy, joyous and fruitful.
Not always gonna be that way;
But it averages out to be totally amazing.
If you should choose to accept it.
Come on young man, don your armour -- or at least grab your shield.
Extinguish those flaming darts. I know you're tired of getting hit when you're down.
Close your eyes and take a step. When you get scared just call my name.
Your eyes deceive you. You're walking in circles.
This is supposed to be a faithwalk. Not a cakewalk.

I know, I know; and I want to be with you.
I beg, and pray, saying 'show me your way'
When you answer me -- hand layed on my shoulder
words spoken making me feel bolder
I listen for a second then lose sight in a moment
I don't know what I'm looking for... a pillar of fire -- ground shaking to your voice
with a simple command saying,
'Boy, you were wrong, the devil has been tricking you;
all this time you been feelin' like the bottom of a shoe?
no, boy, thats just a quick fix, simple mistake, open the panel and flick a switch
Problem. I'm here all along (I dont doubt that this is true)
Just turn around, and know your mine,
have a snot'n'bawl session to make up for time,
and I'll bless on you, like I'm supposed to -- ?
And make you feel the way you feel that lets you act off your heels'
Well I know I'm wrong more completely than partially
But not completely partially and not even partially completely

Well good for you, at least you know I'm God. On my terms; not yours.
If you cant figure out yet that I AM a good God
And I AM an ALL-POWERFUL God
and I KNOW your plight and I know when you cant do it;
but truly I say, I KNOW whn you can, too.
Suck it up, princess; faith over cake
I know you've got an inkling of what you need to do
The quiet voice is turned to max, but I dont see why I need to raise it.
If you listen, you will hear; if you look you will see
seek and you shall find
draw close and I will do the same to thee

Oh man Im teeter tottering, I know I cannot do this -- on my own
God I need to lean on you, but I have to ask you for your help
myself -- I cant ask you to help me ask you the help me!
so God, I'm gonna do it. I know that im gonna screw it,
so please I beg, set a little extra stockpile of grace
throw it in my face when I turn to you in faith
Lord forgive me, the fool that I've been,
I need your help, here I am asking
I'll try, please remind me that -
YOU ARE GOD
And I want to thank you
for the friends in life
that we all love you
hold each other
accountable
I love you
In Jesus
Name,
Amen

Cheese in the desert, my friend

Welldy well well. Colin is tired, and he's gatta write an essay tomorrow morning. So I'll be brief. I was disqualified for the military reserves due to honesty on a drug sheet, and I cant apply until Oct 2008, if I should choose to do so. I am somewhat relieved actually. I now have free time over the summer, and I am currently applying for CIT at camp Qwanoes. I hope im not too late. Uhh I have a really poor foundation in my christianity right now, so I am pretty much starting again from ground zero. Moving ahead SloooooOoOooooOoowly, but FIRMLY. Caitlyn Spence [like (one of) my best friend(s)] is going to be teaching/mentoring me, as well as Rob/Heather, and everyone else. But CaitlynSpence and I are starting up tomorrow and are going to pick up a reading plan for the Holy Holy Bible as well. I got a new 'Extreme Teen' NKJV Bible today. w00t. Soo yeah. Colin out! (thx to caitlynspence for helping me unsderstand essays)

... :)

Hey there, this is a post... Soo yeah... I'm doing good, how about you?
I dont really have anything to post about... Me and Kate are finished, I guess.
Uhh.. Going to the Consumed conference in Courtenay from March 31st to April 2nd.
Oooh! Ooh! I've got the military testing on April 4th! w00t, meaning I can go to Esperanza. Heathermumma is going to South Africa on the 22nd of April; Shannon, Leah, and Herself are going -- God be with her on that trip. I have a newper (new - super) cool best friend!!! Her name is Caitlyn, and she is soooo on the same wavelength as me.It's almost creepy, no matter how I word things she understands exactly what I mean; like 'the mix'. Anyways, I didn't actually think that I had anything to say, but hey, there I am typing.
Alllllrighty then. I'm thinking about getting up, so I'm going to finish this blog so I could if the idea fancies me.

Good day to you sirs and madams, and God bless you in every aspect of your lives.
- Colin Dobson

i'm lovin' it

Δεν το αγαπώ. Η ζωή είναι καλή, ο Θεός είναι καλός, και η υγεία μου είναι καλή εκτός αν μετράτε τη διανοητική υγεία. Είμαι πιεσμένο!!!! lame. Το Katelynne είναι ακριβώς το μεταφορικό μαχαίρι με το οποίο έσκισα τους καρπούς μου κάθε ημέρα. Ζω σε ένα συμβαλλόμενο μέρος οίκτου για με. Είμαι έτσι συγκεχυμένος για την. Σκέφτηκα ότι ήταν αυτή! Θα ήμουν ο πατέρας του παιδιού της, θα είχα ξοδεψει μια διάρκεια ζωής με την! ΤΕΛΕΙΩΝΕΪ; ΜΟΥ ΔΩΣΤΕ ΤΗΝ ΠΕΡΑΤΩΣΗ! Πρέπει είτε να πάρω πέρα από σας, είτε να πάρω αισιόδοξος και να ξέρω ότι το βάσανό μου είναι με τον καλό λόγο, αλλά αμέσως το ι dont ξέρει εάν υπάρχει ένα σημείο για με που φροντίζω άλλο!! που σπάζετε την καρδιά μου και πηγαίνω τρελλός! Ακόμα ακόμα εγκωμιάζω το Λόρδο. Ο Θεός ξέρει τι hes που κάνει, ο Θεός έχει ένα σχέδιο ένα σχέδιο καλύτερα από το ορυχείο... ΑΛΛΑ ΠΗΓΑΙΝΩ ΑΚΟΜΑ ΤΡΕΛΛΟΣ! ΣΑΣ ΑΓΑΠΩ! ΓΙΑΤΙ ΣΥΝΗΘΙΣΜΕΝΟΙ ΜΕ ΑΓΑΠΑΤΕ!;

!si erus siht tub ...keerg ton mi

I'm back

Howdy doody, just to let you know that im back, if anyone reads anymore... I was on a 21 day fast from packaged food, videogames, computers, tv, and any drink but water for the election. cool beans, anywho, I felt obligated to post now that I am back on the computer, but I'm tired so, Ill post laterzzszsz :)

Nighty Night,
GoldieSoots