Maybe it will work this time

Yup,. score...

So, welcome to me; lying in bed at 4:54in the morning, sober. I was SOOO in love with katelynne. hmm off topic. well, I guess its on topic, the topic being me. I did, after all, type that in the first place,./ oh dear.

Well, I feel. what you say? I dont know. A lot, a little, distortedly? who knows. But ill tell ya, the feelings, they breed a passive aggravation. I grow restless, claustrophobic. The walls of society want to close in on me. so im going to crawl around and check out the trim... TO KEEP MY MIND OFF OF MY IMPENDING AND OH SO UNPLEASANT DOOOOOM,./

I dont want to go to school. Ill tell you that much. at least not right now. It doesnt feel right, too oppressive.
...-but were all crazy.(thats just what all the crazies say) orisit??? MAYBE im the only one who ISNT insane. clishehhh

wouldnt mind getting laid, but im not a fan of slutballin it. Things havent just fallent into place lately, blahpunblah.

I think I need to go for a walk. a good long one. y'know.

I COULD DIE AT ANY MOMENT,./ IS THAT NOT EXHILIRATING ENOUGH!?
grass greener teen angst the man fuck you and fuck me.
I do not believe in what we do. but who the fuck am I
I have no place, NOTHING has a place; everything is in its place\
its rightful place?

Some of this typing feels like the letting of a dam.
things lose meaning
fuck

sheeah

Im a janitor. dont like the work, not enough hours,
im scraping right now and I JUUUUST boke my car in the last 12 hours.
FUCK I BROKE MY CAR
fuck

I have kind of just not let that affect me but JESUS CHRIST!
I worked for that freedom and I spent 2000 dollas
w/e right?
yeah w/e.
fuck

In the words of a while ago,
still havent (started) got a new job
still havent quit smoking
still hate most everyone?

I dont even know. I want to go to places where I dont question so much
where things dont seem dark and dirty and negative

where I feel like a good person?

camping, tahsis, friends, novelty awe, wonder, amazement, fear, guilt, passion, fuck////
heres a siiiigh.


go ahead, ask me if im a homo skag-head.
fuck youuuuu

And jordan, if you should ever read this,
It did not bother me at all when you posed that question
you're a rad dude and a dope roommate. rock

Jo bean, were strange people.
I so think youre out of my league. I liked you then and I like you now. I admire you. But I feel like were incompatible or something
although thats a terrible absolute word to throw around when youre hopeful.

But I neednt pursue things,
but then again I neednt pursue anything.


blah blah etc
eop